nofacewoman

They force me to smile. And not in good sence of meaning. I'm not the happy person. Maybe not all of the time. Often I feel bad, then I want to be cruel, annoying and sad. But in my country, everytime when I don't look happy, everybody still asking me why I'm sad. Then they just don't let you live. So I'm still smiling and almost forgot how it is to be smile for real.

Monday... this is the most cruel day in my life. Every Monday I feel like I'm sick. I want to sleep, I want to draw, I want to eat, I want to go somwhere. But any of this activities is imposible to do (or make?). I can't drew antything - pencil is just too heavy. I can't sleep becouse I was sleeping last 12 hours. I can't eat becouse after last parties my fridge is empty. And I cant go anywhere becosue my city is under snow. So what should I do? I want to make a snowman, but I have no idea where my gloves are. It's 15 o'clock, and I do nothing at all.

Yesterday I was very bored, so I started to searching anything interesting in internet. First, I wrote at google "stick insect", i found some photos. Then I saw among them a mantis. I love those insects! There is about 2000 species. One of them looks like flowers, other like tree or grass. I must made one by paper or just draw it, but I think to make myself a tatoo mantis. They're 5 times faster than men. And there is one green mantis at youtube, check this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ik9UYQPPHCQ&feature=related PS: Sorry about the grammar